Take On Me.....Please?

Wow. I had an awesome time at the dance. It was flippin awesome. I loved it and i know everyone else who went did. Well.....Tyler drove me home. I asked him to drive me home cause i wanted to talk to him. I didnt get to talk to him about what i wanted to talk about cause im afraid. Im afraid he is gonna get pissed at what i have to say. Its about me and Zohreh and how we have been hanging out. Not only that but im afraid that i like this girl. i tried not to, but i know she is what ive been waiting for. Maybe its crap...i dont know. She knows so much. She can teach me so much, but if i heed to what ive been told i shouldnt get involved. Nothing said has made an influence...its just that i dont know what i want so Zohreh could be just a treasure hunt, something i want and cant have, and i dont want to make it feel like that. I finally realized that i dont know what i want. Im scared about it and i need it revealed to me. I know to pray about it, and i have, but i think my pride and ways are keeping that revalation from comming. I hate how i am right now. I hate it soo much, with all of my being. I want to change. I want to change so much...i dont know why i find it soo hard. People try to help, but it doesnt work. I need guidence. I need to know things that cant be shared by any earthly being. Sometimes it makes me mad because i know how to get the answer to my problems and i shun it. I throw it away with every wrong action i commit. Im sick of it. Im sick of being confused and vulnerable (i know that wasnt spelt correctly). This is one of the reasons why i just want to run away from this place. Too many bad memories. I need to get away. Far away.............peace.............