Take On Me.....Please?

Yeh.....i dont hate my mom as much as i made it seem....in that last blog....and other times. I just sometimes wish she would be more patient. Why am i such a jerk all the time? i really am, if you guys dont believe it. I catch myself making fun of people and saying rude things. I want to stop, but i dont know how to. I dont know a lot of things. I need more experience........like in dating. Oh well. I hate relationships. Maybe just cause everyone ive been in doesnt end up like i want it to. I think thats it. Oh well. It is better to love and lost than never loved at all. Im just waisting time now.....its yearbook class and im tired. I went to bed early, but im still tired. WHY?! I almost fell out of my chair during seminary. that was weird. Well, its been fun kids, but i must go.............Peace.............