Take On Me.....Please?

Alright, so here is the deal, i have two blogs for today, but it is for a good reason. The reason why i'm so depressed is because i have found out that im selfish. I have helped sooo many people. I have done service and helped all throughout my life, ever since i can remember, but the problem is....i dont get anything from it. I love helping, but its gotten to the point of i want something now. I dont ask much, and those that give me rides are the ones that HELP me, but thats not enough. I just want to get away. I want to go and do things for ME. Its my turn to be helped and its my turn to have MY attention. I want.....no, i NEED to go to Hawaii. That's the only place that i can feel happy. That is the only place that i can truly BE myself. I wish i could be there now, just campin on the beach, maybe a hotel, listening to the gentle waves crashing on the beach at night, spending mornings boogie boarding/surfing, nights flirting and partying. I want to just go. Go and be forgotten for a while. There is too much around me and i want it to leave. I hope you have a better life than me kids, and goodbye for now.................peace...................